Am I a Sucker or What?

I found this blog through a friend of mine, called The Mercy Project. It is written anonomously by a woman who calls herself Mercy. She is charged with some sort of realty crimal activity. She has a husband, two children,(Lady Bug-4 her daughter and Wild Thing-2 her son) her parents are still living, (in fact, her family moved in with her parents when they sold all they had to make restitution for her crime)and she has been awaiting sentencing for her crime. It is such an unbelievable story and you think that it can't be true, but while reading it, you think how can someone make this up...all these emotions and feelings, thoughts that would only come when facing years away from your loved ones. Then my head says" There are actors out there who make a living doing this everyday!" But my heart tells me, she is authentic. She has such deep, wise, thoughts and yet is so down to earth, such an everyday person. It is most definately an interesting read.

But wait, her sentencing was supposed to happen at 3 pm on Thursday. She had three separate sentencing dates that had been postponed 10 days each time. That gave her one more month with her family Thursday just before her sentencing, she posted an entry which was entitled "Peace", that stated that she was certain that Jesus held her future no matter how uncertain it was. She said that she had learned so much of how God loved her by how much she loved her little ones. She stated that she would do anything for her babies and that God had already done everything for her. She spoke of how the night before while snuggling with Lady Bug she whispered "I love you" and Lady Bug giggled and said that she had a quiet burp. How her poignant moment, maybe the last snuggled goodnight with her baby girl didn't work out like she had planned because Lady Bug didn't understand what COULD be about to happen. That with the sentencing date, she has become Lady Bug and God is her parent.

Anyway, I check Thursday night for a post. No post. Hmmm... I check Friday, first thing, for a post. Still no post. I am beginning to get a little panicky. This woman has made restitution, she has shown remorse, she has learned a lesson, surely the judge has not sent her to jail?! I call the friend who got me hooked into this soap opera in the first place and say, "She hasn't blogged, yet! What do you think it means? Is somebody going to let us know if she has to go to jail?" etc....I kept checking all day until one comment on Mercy's last post reads that this person has news. Mercy has been sentenced to 4 years and 9 months in jail and taken into custody immediately. I was devastated. I have only been reading this blog for a couple of weeks but I am so caught up in this woman's life that I was in tears for her, her husband, her little children, her parents, and her blogger friends like me!

I am better today, although I am thinking about Mercy and wondering how she is holding up. I may be the biggest sucker in the world, but her blog has taught me to value each day as the precious gift that it is, to hold tight to the ones you love and love them consistently and deeply, to fully embrace life and enjoy the little things that make life so special. To honor the people who make life worthwhile.

Most anyone of you who are reading this blog are one of those people in my life. You make my life worthwhile. You make my world special and I am so grateful that you let me be a part of your world and that you choose to be a part of mine. You are my special people and I love you and I thank you from the bottom of my heart for being my friend.