Guidance

Health

I have been reading a very strange book that even more strangely has resonated with me. It is called One Thousand Gifts and I am discovering the answers to some of my burning, life-long questions are to be found, according to this author, in gratitude.
So when my friends on Facebook began the annual tradition of posting thirty things for which they are grateful, one on each day of this month of thanksgiving, I decided to join in.
I missed the first day, so I will add it to todays post.
Day one - I am grateful for finding this book that has helped me see some light at the end of this tunnel. To read how someone else has experienced the confusion, the doubt, the fear, the questions, that for years I had hidden deep within myself, never letting them surface for fear of rejection, abandonment, or humiliation at the hands of humanity and how she has discovered an actual solution that she proved in her own life, has been a tremendous boost to my psyche, my spirit, and my soul. Although I realize this author is not my saviour, she is pointing the way back to Him through her heart-breaking, gut wrenching, soul search. She is showing me the "how" in finding my peace, my faith, and my Savior. She is doing this by letting me see her messy life, her mistakes and flaws. She does not stand in judgment or preach from her piety and holiness. On the contrary, she has laid open her soul and shown me from her angst and doubt that one can recover through expression of gratitude for the blessings we take for granted every single day. How through becoming keenly aware of all the small but really good things in our life, we can affect a change in attitude, resulting in a change in self. I thought it only fitting that she and her wonderfully weird book should be the first on my list for thanks. I am daring to live fully right where I am. Thanks, Ann Voskamp!
Day two - As a 50 year old, I am thankful for health. Not only mine, but my family's as well. Everyday it seems, I read of someone who is facing a life threatening illness, struggling with some infirmity, or watching helplessly as their children are affected by some malady. I am so very thankful that even though we have our small and minor ailments, none of us has ever faced any really serious problem with our health. I feel so blessed and favored and it humbles me to realize, "There, but by the grace of God, go I". No matter where I have wandered, no matter how far I have roamed from Him, my God has been faithful to keep me and mine, to guard us and protect us and that fact is anything but lost on me. I don't know why I have been favored, only that I have and I am very thankful for the blessing. I am sure genetics play a part, but it is He, Who put me in the lineage from which I came, so I praise and thank Him for all the tiny components that make up the person that is me.